its been quite awhile since i last posted something.. i was busy with a lot of things especially with work and trying to put things in perspective.. most of my days would be work after that go out then talk to people then go home and sleep.. sometimes its just work.. sleep and non-stop talk with my cousins who are truly a blessing in my life.. and most of my rest days would be drinking sessions with friends and sometimes with my cousins and if lucky enough ill get some sleep.. same routine for the past two months i think..
the first month was overwhelming.. i was so happy and everything went well.. just enjoying the moment while it lasts.. midnight stroll to the bakeshop and chit-chats till the sun comes up..sleeping till noon and waking up to grab some food then back to bed.. but the irony is that though it kinda look lazy but i am now able to wake up and walk a few steps to eat rather than being woken up to eat.. i can now take my laundry to the laundry shop rather than my laundry being taken from my room.. just small things but matters a lot..
but the second month is kinda crazy since i was already working and in shifts too.. i had to balance my work with the kind of life that i have and thats really hard.. i live a crazy life and i have a crazy schedule.. from graveyard to morning to dawn in just 3 weeks.. it was like suicide.. my body clock was going crazy.. i could not manage my sleep and i also have other things to do.. go out.. go to malls.. i still had my social life but it went crazy as well.. and a lot of personal things began to come out to add up to my crazy life.. excess baggages.. unfinished business.. and some new things.. sometimes i can get so crazy as well..
till now i still don't know what to do.. my schedule is stable now but still i am still living a crazy life.. sometimes i feel like i am missing out on a lot of things which i cant figure out what.. if its social life i still have it despite my call-center work and work load.. if its love.. i don't think its that cause i am happy and i don't feel empty.. its just that i sometimes think that something is really missing.. uhhhmmm maybe my friends.. yeah could be my friends since its been ages since the last time i was with them.. and working in shifts just makes it a lot harder to be with them.. i just wanna see my friends and like be with them for a day or so.. i really miss my buddies.. :( i hope i can get sometime off work.. (**crossing the fingers**) thats all for now.. still have to do some things..
Monday, June 30, 2008
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